The greatest tests of love are not experienced with those who are easy to love, but rather with those who are in opposition towards us. Presently my “Untamed” journey is providing me ample opportunity to surrender my ego and judgments to embrace a greater love. For that is where real freedom lies.
I have always learned well from my mistakes, so instead of bemoaning them I try to thank God for the aptly applied lessons they offer me. This trip home was no different. Although I experienced wonderful favor, business opportunity, the tastes of Memphis and the Delta that I love, and the ease of being with my tribe, I also experienced my own shortcomings glaring through the scenery. I fell short covering opposition with love; instead I chose the fighting stance.
My trip offered me opportunity. I now have the opportunity to let go of the pseudo strength of ego to embrace the true strength of love. Sound easy? Its only possible when I am willing to humble myself and recognize the illusion as Thomas Merton said, “… that my false self, the self that exists only in my own egocentric desires, is the fundamental reality of life to which everything else in the universe is ordered.”
Whether I fall into that illusion (which I often do) or the person I experience conflict with does, I have a choice. Do I want to “use up my life in the desire for pleasures and the thirst for experiences, for power, honor, knowledge and love, to clothe this false self and construct its nothingness into something objectively real? …But there is no substance under the things with which I am clothed. I am hollow, and my structure of pleasures and ambition has no foundation. I am objectified in them. They are destined by their very contingency to be destroyed.”
No, I want to leave a legacy of love and grace for my children despite the circumstances I face. I choose then to practice love and allow a greater love to overtake me. True love and ego cannot coexist!
How does the challenge to move out of ego and embrace love register with where you are in your life?